Tuesday, October 7, 2014

we'll go down this road 'til it turns from color to black and white

near the eve of the anniversary of the "passing" of a loved one:

- i see your face everywhere. orlando bloom, random character actors, strangers in a restaurant, no one else sees the resemblance but i do: the quirk of your mouth on one person, the sardonic twinkle in your eye on someone else. it's weird but comforting.

- i talk to you sometimes, then find myself wondering if i actually talked to you that way. five years is a long time at this age, and the fundamentals of who i am may be the same, but a lot of the rest is different. you haven't changed, tho i can picture how you would have. can we still be friends?

- you won't be at my wedding, you'll never meet my kids. one of them will be named in your honor. you'd like that, but find it strange too i bet.